Is it permissible for a Muslim woman to wish to marry a non-Muslim man, and is it permissible for her to supplicate for his guidance?

The questioner is congratulated on her repentance and commitment, and advised to turn the page on the past and focus on correcting and completing her repentance. As for her attachment to the former young man, this is natural and does not mean that he is the most suitable. She is advised to abandon this attachment, for "whoever fears Allah - He will make for him a way out," and "whoever gives up something for the sake of Allah, Allah will compensate him with something better." Furthermore, it is permissible to supplicate for a disbeliever to be guided, but it is recommended to completely forget this young man and pay him no mind to avoid further attachment.