Should the questioner continue to pray and struggle against sin, or abandon prayer until she rids herself of her mistakes, or commit suicide to rid herself of her sins and weaknesses?

Relationships with foreign men are forbidden, and the husband's inability does not justify it. A woman has the right to seek an annulment of the marriage judicially, or to seek divorce due to harm, or khul'. The questioner must immediately repent from these relationships and maintain prayer and the remembrance of Allah; for prayer prohibits indecency and evil, and the remembrance of Allah protects the servant from Satan. It is not permissible to abandon prayer no matter how great the transgressions, and suicide is one of the major sins.