Is calling for jihad while having misgivings and an aversion to it considered hypocrisy? And should one stop this call or supplicate for a love of jihad?

Leave the whispers (waswas) and do not pay attention to them, for women are not among those obligated for Jihad. As for your supplication, we do not know what is preventing it. Focus on what is incumbent upon women, such as learning religious knowledge, acting upon it, and inviting others to it. Your feeling that you are among the hypocrites is a whisper that has no reality; therefore, turn away from all these whispers and do not indulge in them.