Are the difficulties I face in studying abroad and the failure of my scholarships to America and Canada a result of my sins from watching pornography and masturbating, which make me feel forgetful and unable to face life? And what can I do to stay away from them and regain my memory?

What afflicts a servant in terms of calamities is due to their sins and transgressions. Allah Almighty says: "And whatever strikes you of disaster - it is because of what your hands have earned, and He pardons much." Therefore, sincere repentance is necessary to rectify sins and transgressions and to attract Allah's favor. Among the things that aid in repentance are supplication and striving to go against one's whims, as Allah Almighty says: "And those who strive for Us - We will surely guide them to Our ways." Also, choosing righteous company and staying away from bad companions.