Why is a Muslim, after being guided, afflicted with satanic whispers that push him to curse the Divine Essence and religion? And why do these whispers increase during prayer, causing him to repeat the Two Testimonies of Faith and his prayers many times, and increasing his suffering in his relationship with God? And why does God not remove these whispers from him, despite His power, mercy, and His previous responsiveness to his supplications? And why does God leave people suffering from life's difficulties, such as the high cost of living and the inability to marry, and not make their affairs easier for them, while it is mentioned in the Hadith that He will remove malice and hatred from people's hearts in the time of the Messiah?

Congratulations on your repentance. Know that what you mentioned about your chest expanding for the whispers is incorrect; rather, it is from the whispers themselves. Everything you mentioned indicates your dislike and fear of these whispers. What you are complaining about is self-talk and whispers of the chest, and it is forgiven by the grace of Allah, for the Prophet, peace and blessings be upon him, said: "Indeed, Allah has pardoned for my Ummah whatever whispers or thoughts cross their minds, as long as they do not act upon it or speak of it." (Narrated by Al-Bukhari and Muslim). Your dislike for these whispers is a sign of the soundness of your belief and the strength of your faith, for the Prophet, peace and blessings be upon him, said: "That is pure faith." (Narrated by Muslim). Your belief that you have committed disbelief is a mistake. As for your question about Allah not helping you, it is a wish for the cessation of responsibility, and Allah created us for testing, and His promises are fulfilled in accordance with His wisdom, and what you are experiencing is an expiation for your sins.