Is it permissible for me to take revenge on someone who sexually assaulted me in my childhood, and how do I deal with the effects of this experience on my life and future marriage?

Sodomy is one of the most heinous crimes, and its perpetrator must repent immediately. As for you, you are not to blame for what happened, because you did not know what your uncle did, and you were not accountable at that time. You must continue to conceal this matter and try to forget it, and do not think about suicide or revenge. Hasten to marry, for in it there is the lowering of the gaze and the chastity of the private parts, and this will alleviate your burden.