Why does the questioner feel that she is not normal, despite her commitment to acts of worship and memorizing the Qur’an, yet she performs actions such as sending Islamic messages to a young man whose marriage proposal she rejected and trying to get his attention, and does this mean that she is not respectable?

Satan has many tricks to make a servant fall into sin, and his most dangerous helpers against the servant are themselves. Allah warned against following the footsteps of Satan, saying: "O you who have believed, do not follow the footsteps of Satan. And whoever follows the footsteps of Satan - indeed, he enjoins immorality and wrongdoing." Therefore, these actions must be stopped, Satan and the evil-commanding self must be disobeyed, and the relationship with the young man must be severed.