Is what Ibn al-Qayyim (may Allah have mercy on him) mentioned—that the love of beardless youths (infatuation with and gazing at men) stems from the servant's fall from the sight of his Lord and his expulsion from His door—correct? And does this mean that Allah has detested the questioner since childhood for having this habit? And what is the extent of the impact of this statement on the questioner's religious zeal and closeness to Allah?

If you repent and refrain from looking at men with lust, you will be rewarded for striving against your lower self. This falls under Ibn Al-Qayyim's praise for those who remain chaste and patient for the sake of Allah, despite their ability to pursue what they desire, in affirmation of His, the Almighty's, saying: "But as for he who feared the station of his Lord and prevented the soul from [unlawful] inclination, then, indeed, Paradise will be [his] abode" (An-Nazi'at: 40-41) and "But for he who fears the station of his Lord are two Gardens" (Ar-Rahman: 46). As for his first statement, it refers to one who indulged in unlawful love. One must journey towards Allah with a balance between fear and hope, and have good expectations of Him, the Exalted, for He is as His servant expects Him to be.