How can one get rid of the frustration and despair resulting from masturbation and the feeling of disobedience towards God, which has led to an inability to study and absence from the high school final exam, knowing that I am an excellent student and feel that my future is collapsing?

The scholars have classified despair of Allah's mercy as one of the major sins and a characteristic of disbelievers. Allah has opened doors for exiting this state: 1. Seeking forgiveness (Istighfar): A perpetually open door, no matter how many times the sin is repeated. 2. Reliance upon Allah (Tawakkul): Depending on Him and seeking His help, not grieving over what has passed or fearing what is to come. 3. Contentment with Allah's decree and destiny (Qada' and Qadar): For in it lies peace and joy, and the servant must believe in Allah's decree and destiny. 4. Helping others: And being kind to them, especially parents and siblings; for the recompense is of the same kind as the deed. 5. Increasing the remembrance of Allah (Dhikr): For by it hearts find tranquility, and one should supplicate with the supplication of the Prophet, peace be upon him: "O Allah, I seek refuge in You from anxiety and sorrow, and from inability and laziness, and from stinginess and cowardice, and from the burden of debt, and from being overpowered by men."

Suicide is not a relief; rather, it is an escape from one major sin to a greater one, hastening painful torment.