What is the meaning of constant quarreling with one's father, which ends with invoking a curse upon him and dreaming of an illicit relationship with him?

It is impermissible to quarrel with one's father or to invoke curses upon him, as this constitutes disobedience to parents (Uqūq al-Wālidīn), which is among the gravest of major sins. As stated in the Hadith: "Shall I not inform you of the greatest of major sins?" We said, "Yes, O Messenger of Allah." He said, "Associating partners with Allah, and disobedience to parents." As for what the questioner is experiencing, it cannot be interpreted due to lack of specialization, and it is advised to show dutifulness to her father.