What is the Sharīʿah ruling concerning my situation, where I am struggling with myself due to jealousy over others' marriages, which led me to engage in forbidden relationships with young men, from which I then repented, but now I suffer from obsessive thoughts about death and feel intense guilt? How can I rid myself of these thoughts and return to my normal life?

Regret over sin is a sign of sincere repentance, and this regret should be directed towards perseverance in repentance and good deeds, without it becoming a cause for despair or abandoning work. Remembering death is good and encourages action, but it must be directed to be a motivator, not a deterrent. The effects of jealousy result from a weakness in certitude and a lack of contentment with Allah’s decree. If one’s certitude were firm that all matters are in Allah’s hands and that His decree is good, these grudges would not enter. It is advised to repent and seek forgiveness, associate with righteous women, and seek counsel from the consultation department, with a reminder that it is impermissible for a woman to travel without a mahram.