Will the man who was afflicted with a lack of provision and an inability to marry, in addition to a harsh childhood, be rewarded for his patience? And will he find something to compensate him for his suffering? And will Allah have mercy on him if he ends his life because of these difficult circumstances?

We understand your pain and ask Allah to expand your chest. Suicide is one of the gravest sins, and Allah has promised Hellfire to those who commit suicide, forbidden Paradise for them, and the Prophet abstained from praying over them. So, abandon this thought and seek professional help. Know that marriage and provision are trials. The believer gives thanks in prosperity and shows patience in adversity. Your patience and your chastity from the forbidden have a great reward with Allah, and Paradise awaits the patient. Among the things that help with patience are: 1. Knowing that Allah has chosen this trial for you. 2. Considering the affliction a healing remedy. 3. Remembering that the outcome is good. 4. That Allah nurtures His servant through ease and hardship. 5. Belief in divine decree and destiny. 6. Remembering the greatest calamities, such as the death of the Prophet, peace be upon him. 7. Avoiding impatience, as it magnifies the affliction. 8. Finding solace in those who are afflicted more severely than you. 9. Remembering that you belong to Allah, and to Him you shall return. 10. That trials are a test from Allah. 11. The bitterness of this world is the sweetness of the Hereafter. 12. That Allah is the Creator of the actions of His servants. 13. That afflictions are due to the servant's sins. 14. Recalling the great reward for the afflicted. 15. Allah's companionship and love for the patient. 16. That patience is conquering the self.

We ask Allah to grant you the best of this world and the Hereafter, and a righteous spouse.