Do the obsessions and thoughts that cross a Muslim's mind, specifically what he said to himself when he saw the Christian: "This person has no obsessions and does not suffer from anxieties like me; all he has to do is utter the two testimonies of faith, and Allah, the Almighty, will forgive him what has passed. As for me, I live in anxieties and remember past situations that contained blasphemous words. Sometimes I pray, and sometimes I repeat the two testimonies, and at other times I return to the blasphemous words, so I cannot limit or specify the periods in which I was a believer and the periods in which I was an unbeliever," indicate contentment with disbelief?

Obsessive thoughts have taken hold of you and reached their peak. You now refuse treatment for them and reject advice to use it. However, we advise you to seek a swift recovery and to close the door to these obsessive thoughts, not to dwell on them, and to turn away from them completely and utterly. If you do not do so, you will remain in this distress, and Satan will possess your heart and corrupt it for you. Know that this matter that crossed your mind is not disbelief, nor is it acceptance of disbelief at all. So, be gentle with yourself and do not overburden it. Cast off the dust of these obsessive thoughts, and you will live with peace of mind. Turn to your Lord, the Almighty, and busy yourself with His worship, and do not allow Satan to corrupt your heart.