Is it possible that the multiple sexual harassments the questioner experienced in her childhood, including being harassed by her brother, have affected her hymen? Is the ease with which her sexual desire is aroused a result of those harassments? Does her being afflicted with these events mean that Allah does not love her?

Everything that befalls a servant is by Allah's decree and destiny, and affliction can be a sign of Allah's love for His servant. A Muslim should have a good opinion of their Lord and distance themselves from the whispers that cloud their mind and disrupt their life, and they should embrace what benefits them in their religion and worldly life. If a suitor of good character and religiosity proposes to her, she should not hesitate to accept him. And among the greatest aids in overcoming fears and anxieties is frequent remembrance of Allah (dhikr) and supplication (du'a).